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Name: camille
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Lima
Birthday: 3/18/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: ummm...ummm.....jesus!!! o yea music in general but only good music (good music means i sing along in my car with the windows down)for those of you who still dont kno what i mean here goes (deep breath) ska, rock, classic rock, punk, some emo some rap, jazz, blues, indie rock (some), musicals, the almost screamo bands,some techno, art (even tho is sure as hell is not my forte), psychology and all that jazz o yea and good movies they usually range from stuff like the notebook to white castle, and vive la bam is the greatest show ever
Expertise: laughin at things that most would find mean, not drowning in a pool, sarcasm, singin like a man and well...i dont think im allowed to say on here...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Yahoo:  szuchie_05
Member Since:
5/2/2005
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| 1 week kiddies, i dont want to take exams and actually have to remember what I've learned for a few months. life is odd at the moment with school and...people ive just been feeling..different i guess. there are some days where i think everyone just wants to bring me down and other days where I feel like people actually do care and arent out to get me. i guess im a little confused and could use a summer of hard work and exercise to clear my head. I think i just need to be alone, being around everyone 24/7 is getting annoying and I miss being by myself to just sit and think. There's always a roommate, a friend, a boyfriend around and I just want to chill with no one around, no one to try to please, and no one to fucking care. Yea...i need a break from life. Pray for costa rica to come closer. which reminds me...I might actually be starting to become religious here, it's a big topic here with friends (buddhist, pessimist, a semi born again christian, and me...the catholic) of course I get picked on a lot because of issues people dont understand because they are morons so in explaining to them why I'm not going to hell I think I've become...more spiritual. Granted I'm not going to start going to church or anything hell I dont think I'll even start praying but I feel stronger that something is out there better and stronger than us and it may not be controlling our lives but it certainly tests us and is interesting in seeing how much we think life is worth. Anyway, enough of my rambling, well about religion anyway, o except for one more thing, I hate born again christians and next to Green Peace i want to burn them down too.
but yea, life is mostly good, right now the glass is half full but next week its gonna 3/4 empty lol | | |
| a sigh, it can mean many things cant it? it can be a pissed off thing where you just want to rip someone apart, it can be a sigh of relief, pain, or love. Today i sighed because of memories. Things have changed so much from last summer. Especially the people i've left behind. There are certain people who have changed for the better and the worse I think. It's odd seeing friends grow up and become people you didnt expect them to be but at the same time its nice. I've been looking back at old old blogs and I laugh now at some things I was worried about. I always wonder what would have happened if I could gone back in time to warn myself about the future, what to do, what not to do. But at the same time if I hadnt made some mistakes I would have never had the close friendships I had. Don't get me wrong tho this past summer was great, it was what a summer before college should have been. I had fun, I hung out with old friends who suddenly were new. But still looking back upon it lima has changed some for the better some...which arent so good from what I hear. Which kinda makes me sad because some people used to be...not really different but i guess I should say effected. Effected by the lack of people who would be a sort of conscious I guess. I'm not really sure I even like what I'm saying here. It's not completely how I want to say it. I guess I'm pulling a holden. Not nesscessarily (sp?) running away from change but I'm not sure if i like it or not...
anyway...college 2nd semester...good things, psych class is really fun, im taking a personality course. It has really helped me to see things in a different light. I'm def. sure I want to stick with psych, I think I could make a decent criminal investigative psychologist or a clinical psychologist...but I've got plenty of time to figure out which one hah | | |
| im happy for the first time since ive been home. since i got here on thursday ive had this sense of anxiety and self doubt. but finally today its like the world has gotten off of my shoulders. im not paraniod today, its like everything is gone and now i only feel peace  ...im such a dork | | |
| ok so yesterday i was watching vh1 the religion thing of the stars. and i got mad, all these people supposedly are so religious but if you think about it their money has corrupted these religions. esp. the ones like kabbalah or whatever it is in the kingdom of botan. these people are building churches, or meditation rooms in their houses but doesnt that defeat the whole purpose of community worship which is a large in most religions? these people go on vacations to Jordan and call it a pilgrammage wtf. a pilgrammage is supposed to an enlightening time for a person to feel closer who whatever they worship but when madonna goes on a fucking pilgrammage she brings the press, the police and god knows who else. which is bullshit its a time for personal worship and shes making a mockery of it. these stars then take over places like the kingdom of botan and make them build resorts so they have a place to stay thats 5 star. once again bullshit, to me it doesnt make sense. its like o im so humble blah blah yet they live in this house and expect a certain kind of treatment. if it were me id expect to be treated normally in a place of such relgious affiliation. i mean you are no different then a poor man in god's eyes so why do they expect to be treated like a god. theres a temple on a mountain which there are no roads to, the only way to get to it is by helicopter. to me part of the experience of it is to climb. you dont reach religious nirvana by shortcuts but by learning from your mistakes and doubt, thats just how it works.
then i look back and laugh at what i just wrote bc im not sure i belive in god, i know something is up there i just dont know what. | | |
| last real week of school...
exams already...ick
bc i currently dont want to talk about school...yesterday was relaxing. 3 other guys and i went behind miami where there are 2 parks, which were icy and the hills made farout (sp?) look like mounds. There was one brige completely covered in ice and downhill...but sliding down it was a party. we were there for 4 hours just walking around the back country of miami. when we were finished we walked a little over 4 miles i think. it looked a lot like lord of the rings, i was waiting for ring wraiths to jump out at us hahah. everything was covered in ice, luckily my boots have great traction. one of the guys was wearing tennis shoes tho...he couldnt walk at all it was hilarious. there is a waterfall type deal in the beginning of the trail which we played with for a good half an hour. and yes the shore was iced over on that too but we didnt care. at this point i was dubbed "the kid who fell in and no one noticed" mainly bc i was so close to the deep water without actually being it it. we pushed a big rock in...that was fun, it just kept going too, it was really surprising how deep the water was so close to the shore. i think im bit fearless in some of those situations just bc ive been swimming for so long but i think if any of us fell in we would have underestimated th current. anyway, it was just nice being out there, alto we came across a cemetary was was creepy and fun at the same time. it also got me thinking about my dad but it a good way. o we also came up with EXTREME SLEDDING!!! | | |
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